2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Thursday, February 19, 2015

I Am OK With Being Sick

I am in this different dimensional perspective. No more focusing on becoming healed. I'm giving up the daily mantras, "I Am healed," "I Am healthy." Something happened, something good, and I am now surrendered to, and even grateful for being sick.

What happened?, you ask? I'll call it the next level of my Ascension; that's what happened. I know because I have more peace and more joy and more calmness and more freedom from thought; and because I feel more like my Real Self. The details of how this happened is a very private matter.

There is Purpose in my being sick.

It's Truth that I have already had some major healing to my health. I absolutely am better than I was even a year ago; even six months ago. Structured Water has brought much healing to my body! It's a Miracle that happens to everyone who uses it (in many different ways; we are all different). It will probably continue to heal more of my health over the years! I will welcome that, but I am not looking for that anymore. And there is such a long way to go for my health to be fully restored; for my being able to live a normal life; for my being able to spend most of my time outside this bed.

I feel nothing but freedom in being surrendered to this devastating, debilitating chronic illness. I feel totally relaxed. I can just let go and breathe. There is no pressure on me anymore from me. No pressure to go, see, do. No pressure to perform. No pressure to be productive. No pressure to work on healing my health. No pressure in wanting relief from the symptoms. I Just Get To Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

OHMYGODIHAVETOGOSAYTHANKYOUTOSOMEONE!.....