There's A Reason I Don't Post More

I created my blog here before my final orphanhood from my foo+ (family of origin and relatives).
It has been very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very good for me (and even more verys) this final estrangement. Funny when something so tragic and devastating and sad can provide such positive treasures. And I'll NEVER look back again. I Am Free As I Am Meant To Be.

So, I don't like the idea of the foo I no longer have, especially the ones who are given to spying on me; sister and mother, to be reading my thoughts and my goings-on. I'm safe on Facebook because only Friends can read my FB, and I wish I could create that scenario here!

I DON'T have control over that though. Perhaps in time I'll forget about my discomfort and blog freely.

I am continuing to heal and to grow in so many ways and I love it and I am so grateful. I Am healing my body and I Am evolving my soul too. And I Am loving myself more and more... even though I'm fat! I hate that I'm fat but I know it's caused by illnesses and not by food. I know it's out of my control because I eat light and healthy as a rule. It's so unfair. As my health continues to heal, may my fatness heal too into thinness!!! 20 - 25 lbs. over is a lot on me and that is my plight.

I know there are a select few health care professionals who could seriously help me heal my immune system which would make the excess fat melt away, but I can't afford them. Limiting calories doesn't work. Giving up gluten, grains, sugar, dairy doesn't work. I've diligently tried. I continue though to eat low amounts of those things for health reasons. And I've been off gluten a couple years. I need professional help from someone like Kerry Tepedino, who healed her thyroid and now helps others do the same. Oh well. Poor me. Fat forever I guess. People who see me must think I'm lazy and a pig.

This is not where I intended this post to go though!

But perhaps releasing all those thoughts will do me some good.

I'm also wondering if as I Am healing my health, my fatness will heal too. Perhaps I could allow that knowing to take hold. My health IS healing. I feel I AM healed, in fact, I know it. Healed of serious health issues like ME/CFS. And my body needs time to catch up. In other words, I Am healed because of GodGoddessUniverse -- a spiritual thing. I may not need health care professionals, although I may too; they may be a part of my healing process....

In OTHER words, because of Structured Water, and teachers like Matt Kahn, Anita Moorjani, Wayne Dyer, Aleya Dao, etc., my health IS healed! I not only know it, I am experiencing it! I am able to do more and more; I have more energy and stamina. And I know we all have the power and ability to heal our health, through God. And I know that when I heal, I am not healed alone! I actually know a lot more than that, but do not feel ready to write about it publicly.

TODAY I choose to feel, believe, and KNOW that my weight issues are healed also and that my body simply needs time to catch up!

My Beautiful Family Thanksgiving at Seaport Village

The Start Of This Thanksgiving Day

One Page Of Journal Gratitudes

I Am Healed And My Body Just Needs Time To Catch Up!

I'm Sorry

I'm releasing the judgment I have for patients who take meds and I am replacing that judgment with compassion. For so many right reasons.
In part, my judgment stemmed from my father being killed by his third wife who was addicted to pain meds.
Patients who take meds that are unbeknownst to them making them sicker are simply trying to feel better, to feel safe, and they are trusting the doctors who prescribe them.
I have more to say about this and hope to continue later.

I Just Can't STAND It!

I can't stand that so many people I care about are slowly making themselves sicker and slowly killing themselves by taking GodDamned meds!

Like my ME/CFS community friends.

And I was right about Robin Williams being killed by Big Pharma, and I take no pride in that!! It's a  bloody waste and a shame, and if only America would Wake Up because of his death. At least two meds caused his suicide: a Parkinson's Rx and antidepressants.

I am EXTREMELY opinionated about this entire subject and it borderlines on being judgmental. Borderlines? OK, I'm admitedly very judgmental about meds, murderous Big Pharma, the AMA that is in Big Pharma's pocket, doctors who unneccessarily prescribe meds, and people who ignorantly take them.

Gotta work on more gentle, loving, non-judgmental ways of helping people wake up about meds.

Posted on Facebook Tonight

Who are my medicinal marijuana users?

I'd enjoy addressing you all right now.

Wow, this stuff really really helps one to unwind, relax, and gently alter consciousness

I posted the last time I partook

That was weeks ago

I received positive comments and likes

After all, there's nothing to be ashamed of

It's All Good