What "The Truth Shall Set You Free" Means To Me

I feel much lighter when I'm Honest with Myself about what I'm feeling. It's never about having to hear anyone's comments. It's about telling yourself the Truth. It brings it into the Light. It transmutes the darkness--which is not to be feared. I'm grateful I am finding my Voice more and more.

The Other Side Of The Coin Of My Genuine Happiness

To my FOO and my non-CFS friends
I don't want this disease. I didn't ask for this disease. I can't cure this disease.
I can't pretend like this disease doesn't exist like most of humanity does. I pretend as often as I possibly can. I pretend I'm healthy to please you. And myself, for that matter.
I wish I could give you what you want and pretend like I don't have it all the time.
Then maybe you wouldn't be afraid to talk to me.
But for now, I'm spending another beautiful weekend just sitting alone and not pretending which is why I'm blogging. I am physically unable to do anything else today, just as most of my days.
I also watch TV, write, go on Facebook, and read when my impaired cognitive abilities and eyes allow.
I wish you could see me---no, I mean Really SEE me. Just Once. Just one time.
I wish you could care and send your love.
But you can't, for whatever reasons, or else you surely would.

ME ON A TYPICAL DAY

Important On My Mind Today

This picture was posted on Facebook today. I shared it on my Timeline and wrote this caption:

To Humanity: Is that too much to ask? I'm there for you when you are ill. I ask you how you are doing and I listen to you. I offer you support and well wishes. I care. I believe you when you tell me you are sick. Why can't you do the same for me? I know the name of this disease sucks and is misleading, I know we don't look or sound ill, but if you would just ask me I would so gratefully explain all that. Love, The Millions With CFS/ME

 

16 1/2 years with this illness, and it does get lonely sometimes....... a lot.