2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Saturday, January 2, 2016

I Wonder If I'm Outgrowing Another Spiritual Community?

It's perfectly normal to do so, but this time it might not be under pleasant circumstances.

I only gravitate towards spiritual communities of free-thinkers. I was part of Eckhart Tolle's community for many years. Then I naturally gravitated towards Matt Kahn (True Divine Nature) when I discovered him two years ago.

But I'm not happy with the Facebook community that was created by some of his students. I'm feeling hurt and demeaned. They are deleting people's posts without the courtesy or loving kindness of notifying them and explaining why. Matt would never treat anyone that way.
Here's the second post of mine they deleted (I just found out when I went to the group to read more comments):
"Sorry 'bout that! My bad?
Quite a while back I posted -- wondering if Matt and Julie were a couple, and that wasn't deleted. (I learned they used to be!)
Several days ago I wondered out loud here what Matt's sexuality was. It was a natural, normal query out of love, interest, and curiosity. And if he happened to be gay (or straight or bi), how cool that would be.
It got deleted, I see. I'd expect that from the sexually repressed, homophobic world, but not my beloved TDN community heart emoticon, which I've been a grateful part of for nearly two years. xo
Perhaps it was my wording that was misunderstood? I'm not on Facebook much smile emoticon so I only saw the first comment..."
 I'm truly taken aback that so many people found this offensive. These are supposed to be more enlightened people than most. I commented in the comments that sexuality is God-given and meant to be celebrated. I also just shared with friends there (at least I thought those were my friends) that it would be so cool if Matt were gay and how much the world needs a top spiritual teacher who is gay to help unify the world about sexuality.
Stuff like that.
I just posted this there. If it gets ignored by Admin or deleted, I'll leave the group for sure:

"Request to Admin:
Please notify people when you delete their posts. Please have that courtesy and loving kindness to alert them and explain why.
It's very hurtful and demeaning otherwise, and I know Matt and Julie would never do such a thing to a TDN member.
Thank You, and May You Be Blessed heart emoticon"


I won't be leaving Matt Kahn's work and teachings though!