2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Monday, March 21, 2016

Why It's Difficult For Me To Keep This Blog Going

I LOVE my blog.
BUT,
I know members of my FOO (family of origin) are reading it and that is not a good thing for me; it's hurting and harming my well-being and state of mind.
I orphaned myself from them for very real and good reasons.
I need them completely out of my life in order to fully heal.
And the reason is because they would rather lose me than admit and heal the abuse that happened to me at their hands.
It's a torturous situation for me.
I have been seriously contemplating shutting down this blog because of them; I barely write here as it is.
I'll never stop writing though! : )