2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Saturday, August 2, 2014

An Email I Just Sent To My FOO

Things feel absolutely perfect and on-track just the way they are between me and all of you, and I just wanted to let you know how I feel.
What works works, and for me it works to know you are there and in my life but separate.
This sounds funny when it's verbalized out loud!
Nonetheless, I'll try to say it anyway. I'm grateful that we are not completely estranged anymore like we were when I orphaned myself from you for 1 1/2 years before David got sick.
And I'm equally grateful that we are not connecting with each other on a regular basis and hardly at all; so it feels like we have space from each other.
It simply can't be any other way, can it.
So, I just want you to know that I'm content with our present reality. I already know you are; that no one misses me!
Don't know why fate had this outcome in store for us, but at least the way it is is working!
Love You Forever, Judy
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