2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Saturday, January 24, 2015

I Wrote One Sentence In My Book Today

It's the last sentence, added to what I wrote a couple years ago:



An Intro of sorts


            PK is what people called us preacher’s kids. Pariah---meaning outcast of the family when incest and emotional abuse caused them to basically abandon me when I spoke up about it within the family; with the intention of bringing healing to all of us.

            But, this book is not a bitching session, it is my fight to wholeness and happiness, inner peace and understanding. And on-going forgiveness. It is my exploration through my feelings and my thought processes, and intense conversations and emails with my family to discover how and if I can achieve reunion with my family of origin.* And the subtitle could be, The Truth Shall Set You Free.

            *Spoiler Alert: The answer is No.
        
I understand now why I'm blocked from finishing my memoir. I wanted a happy ending. The whole book (236 pages) is about working towards healing and reunion with my family. Since that turned out not to be in the cards..... guess I'm still recovering from learning that last year....
   
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