2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Journaling To Myself For Clarity

I want to make some more money
I want to promote my Structured Water Devices business
And I want to create a store at Society6 to sell my beautiful mandalas
And I want to get back to work on my memoir for publishing

Am I stuck?
Or am I just allowing things to open-up and unfold at their own pace?
I've been chronically ill with the debilitating illness for so long I don't know how to do anything other than to just allow things to unfold

Pushing myself still doesn't seem to be an option for me
Loving myself unconditionally is my only option
As my love grows my confidence grows
And so does my inspiration and creativity

Setting this intention to want more may spark something



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