2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Writing Practice

Just because it feels so good to write. That's what being a writer is to me.

I'm super crashy right now. An ME/CFS crashy. So it's difficult even to keep my eyes open. the fatigue, exhaustion, muscle weakness, even the tinnitus --- leave me so deflated. It even hurts to think because it's too much exertion.

Nonetheless, I'm happy.

Good thing I know "I Don't Have To Get My Way To Be Happy!"

:D

And just so grateful the the difficult, discordant recent experiences only served to make me happier and stronger --- and so quickly too! 

The crash will pass quickly and soon enough I'll be "my" normal again; fatigued and such but able to function "my" normal; so not like a healthy person's normal!

My crashes are fewer and shorter lasting you know. Mostly because of Structured Water. :D 
 
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