2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Saturday, June 20, 2015

You Wouldn't Like Me If You Knew I Am In Love With A Married Man, Would You

My imagined post on Facebook!
How I yearn to go public....

Are you fucking kidding me?!
I've wanted to go public since I found him in 2003!

I was mercilessly cyber-bulled by Leigh, whom I trusted, for my truth that I shared with her; and her bullying went on and on and on for many pm's and emails... that and for drinking (she's an AA Nazi, unbeknownst to me prior).

He was my high school crush
We accidentally found each other 30 YEARS later on classmates.com when it was brand new (2003)
For the past decade though, we've been getting to know each other as strictly platonic friends
Over the phone
He lives 600 miles away

He's in a solid, healthy marriage
I am too, even though my spouse and I have been separated for about 15 years

Life Is Funny

Especially the part about that I'm not allowed to celebrate my Pure Love for both men, but specifically for my married friend. I'm not permitted to. It's not allowed in society...

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