2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Another Turn For The Worst --- But Perhaps Now Personal Healing Can Continue

I had the worst nightmares, and when I woke up, I Woke Up --- and realized HOPE is FUTILE.

My mother, sister and brother will NEVER admit the abuse that happened, and they will NEVER read "The Courage To Heal" which could bring healing to us.

I had almost forgotten that they continue to allow my nieces and nephew to be turned against me believing I made false accusations of abuse! I Adore those kids, and they adored me growing up!
I'm So Heartbroken.
There are no words.

I'm allowing my ANGER out here: FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID, STUPID NARCISSISTIC PEOPLE!!!!!!!

I'm In So Much Emotional And Psychic Pain I Really Don't Know How I'm Going To Endure It


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