2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

I Have To Keep Writing About It

Children MUST be taught that if they are abused to TELL a trusted adult, and if that trusted adult doesn't believe them, tell another... and another... if necessary until they find someone who BELIEVES them.

This is SO IMPORTANT.

ALL  ADULTS  ARE  RESPONSIBLE  FOR  ALL  CHILDREN


I haven't been a child for decades, but in order to heal I have to keep talking about this horrible stuff.

I have absolutely no one in my FOO+ (family of origin and relatives) that I can talk to.

I wrote my memoir three years ago and it was meant to bring truth and healing.

This year I thought I was going to get the happy ending I wanted for my book; that my FOO and I reunited in healing.

All year I've been thinking that would happen.

Just a few days ago my dreams were permanently shattered.

If my book is going to have a happy ending now it's going to have to be that I find personal happiness as an orphan who will never resolve things with her FOO.

I have strong feelings of hate. That's normal. I'm so angry and so hurt.

At least I got out, again, of an abusive situation. I escaped.

May my book end up helping others to do the same.

I need time to learn if I will become whole before I finish my book.

Guess, sadly, the title doesn't get to be "PK Pariah Gets Her FOO Back" but just

"PK Pariah"

(preacher's kid who is the outcast in her family for trying to bring healing by telling them the truth)