2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Friday, September 11, 2015

I Tried To Say Goodbye, And That Was Before Yesterday's Post

They sucked me back in

Different kinds of exchanges yesterday

Mostly positive

Then my sister bullied me, as always

Tried to point it out to all of them this morning in our group text messages thread from yesterday
so we could get some healing and understanding

She told me to fuck off (not in so many words) and never contact her again


And So It Always Goes


Together they will write me off as crazy and the cause of all the problems in the family

They have each other and I have no one
As always


They will NEVER talk about anything
It's so much easier for them to keep me the scapegoat like they've done since I was a child



If ONLY A Miracle Could Happen


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