How do I do that?
In part, by infusing it with my mandalas.
A mandala is every chapter header.
And I write prose-style so my chapters are super short.
But they pack a punch.
And I swear, the details of the abuses makes it ALL MAKE SENSE; makes whomever reads my book "get" exactly... everything.
And the Whole Thing has the potential to HEAL my FOO and ME. .... (?)
You'll see...
My Power is as a writer.
Here's An Excerpt (that I rewrote earlier this year, but sadly, have to now rewrite again and take out the happy ending part):
An Intro of sorts
PK is what people called us
preacher’s kids. Pariah---meaning outcast of the family when incest and
emotional abuse caused them to basically abandon me when I, probably
haphazardly, in my mid 20s, spoke up about it within the family; with the intention of
bringing healing to all of us.
This book is my fight to wholeness
and happiness, inner peace and understanding. And on-going forgiveness. It
is my exploration through my feelings and my thought processes, and intense
conversations and emails with my family; to discover how and if I can achieve
reunion with my family of origin, whom I call my FOO. And the subtitle could be, The Truth
Shall Set You Free.
How it, ultimately, was for the
purpose of returning me to Self, and Self
Love.
The book was written during the time
I was orphaned with no real hope of reconciling with my FOO. However, I wrote
it with the burning desire and aspiration of it bringing us back together. A
therapist and an editor who read my then completed book of 200 pages
well-meaningly told me it couldn't be done---that it just doesn't happen; that kind of healing and reunion. I ultimately gave up and
surrendered to being a forever orphan, wanting only for my book to help others
outside my family find personal healing.
I could not have predicted what
miraculously happened for my FOO and me two years after finishing this book;
which I then had the joy of rewriting its ending.
...So, you see, sadly, the editor and the therapist were right... so I'll be rewriting this.
