2016 Update: I care more about this blog than I do that "they" can read it, otherwise I'd stop writing it and create a new one. As long as they finally leave me and my little family alone, there should be no problem, even though I requested that they don't read it. Since they have no interest in my writing, I'm probably safe. I hope so hard they will finally respect our wishes of no contact. I care so much about telling the truth and bringing healing. I fought my entire life to bring communication, truth, and healing to my FOO. There's nothing left to fight for so I have given up, at age 59. I can now only bring healing to myself and other survivors through my words. I finally went back to work on my heart-wrenching memoir that I wrote in 2012 that I originally wrote for them as my last Hope of getting my beloved family of origin and relatives back. But, There Are None So Blind As Those Who Will Not See

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Wait. I've Got It Backwards

What could be better than not having a lover who lies to you
(due to no fault of his own)

What could be better than Not having a lover

And learning to love your self instead
of being complete in yourself instead

I'm in love, yeah
But I'm not in a relationship
And I haven't had sex in 10 years (with anybody but myself)

And I think I just had this inspired awakening  ...   as to how perfect that is


No
Bullshit


No
Lies


No
Drama




....breathing that in

When he and I are old and gray and can meet.....


Oh Myyy    the possibilities